Hollowed out
and beaten down
Still you
hold your tarnished crown
Eyes are
burning, muscles sore
Head is
aching, you can’t take anymore
You once
were queen upon your throne
Now you
wander lost and alone
Your mind is
trapped within your past
You fake
happiness which cannot last
You need
release you need to cry
You need
answers you need to know why?
If not why
then how? you ask
How do you
fight? What an impossible task
When the
danger dwells inside yourself
When the
problem is your mental health
How do you
fix it? Why should you care?
Why does it
matter if you don’t wash your hair?
You hold
your crown but deep down you know
Your castle
and throne were all for show
Your mistress
of nothing, you rule over none
You can’t
even make sure your housework is done
There must
be a way to get yourself back
To get this
life of yours back on track
Perhaps the
first step is to polish the crown
Wash your
hair, find your shoes, and buy a new gown
Or maybe you
let go of a past tarnished and frightful
And look to
a future which just may be delightful.
09~05~2017
Endless
noise and endless fights
Forever
thinking means less sleep at nights
Hard to stop
the incessant noise
Hard to
control my perfect poise
All this
inside my mind each day
No wonder
sanity feels like it’s slipping away
Two
personalities with their own thoughts
My mind
becoming their private tennis courts
The left
side lobs a thought across to the right
The right
lobs one back with all his might
I’m stuck in
the middle trying to survive
Constantly
wondering if I’ll get out alive
This
constant noise can get so loud
Its hard to
concentrate out in a crowd
I need time
to myself, I need time to rest
Distractions
from thoughts, but sleep works the best
No noise
when I’m sleeping, except for the dreams
But that
noise is different, we’re untinted it seems
Why does my
mind seem split in two?
And to stop
all this noise what do I do?
If I can’t
get along with the thoughts in my head
If they
constantly bicker about what someone has said
How can I
know what is fake, what is true?
Why do
friends stand by me with all I put them through.
23~04~2017
Hiding
behind a perfect mask
A girl so
shattered yet no one will ask
What is
wrong? Why are you so sad?
Why do
little things make you so mad?
They can’t
see the sorrow, despair, or the pain
Only the
cheerful mask, the smiles she can feign
She is
scared to show the world her pain and true face
She instead
moves along with kindness and grace
Helping
another with whatever she can do
Her generous
nature the one thing that is true
You’ll look
at her passing you out on the street
You’ll look
right through her never missing a beat
No one will
guess she thinks she’d be better off dead
You’d never
guess at the commotion inside of her head
Strangers
often stop and tell her their sorrow
She listens
and shows them a shoulder to borrow
Other people
mean more to her than she does to herself
She will
give all she can no thought for her own health
She always
says yes, she hates to say no
Works so
hard to make sure the truth doesn’t show
She could be
your mother, your sister, your wife
Or any
random female you know in your life
So take the
time, stop and truly talk a while
Pay
attention and you may notice what’s behind her bright smile.
20~04~2017
Falling
Further down the rabbit hole
Nothing to
stop you nothing to hold
The darkness
grows dense around your soul
No heat to
thaw the heart numbing cold
Fall far
enough the pain just may cease
But of
course, this is just another lie
There is
only chaos no room for peace
So, you yell
and scream and ask the gods why
Why am I
like this? Why am I here?
Why am I
damaged beyond all repair?
You can
fight, beg, or hide from your fear
But the
ground hits hard, best beware
How far you
fall or how deep you go
Changes each
time you fall into the hole
Till you
stop falling you never can know
If you’ll
make it out unscathed and whole
When you hit
rock bottom yes it will sting
No free
rides are to be had in this wonderland
You must
pick yourself up and get back in the ring
Fight back
at your monsters, win your right to feel grand
20~04~2017
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