I
hate to do lists, not because I am lazy and don't want to do anything
but rather because I never know what to do first and I end up staring
at the list for ages caught up in some funky kind of decision
paralysis...Which “to do” is the most important? How do I start?
Am I able to do it with out other preparation? And gods forbid there
is preparation needed because that is a whole other list of things to
do!
I
just don't know how to work my way through a list of chores or
obligations, I find it overwhelming to have too many things to do and
prioritising them makes it worse. show me a list of things to do and
I instantly turn from a highly motivated girl with a “can do”
attitude to a stuttering fool incapable of even the simplest action.
It
isn't just a written list that gets me either, my brain has a list of
things I should be doing and it often makes me just want to crawl
under a rock and ignore the world. Of course it probably doesn't help
that my darling brain starts listing things while I am in bed or busy
doing something else. My beloved brain also almost always insists its
list is of the utmost importance and must be done now...right
now...even though it is 11:30pm!
For
the last week I have had so many things I want or need to do and have
not been able to achieve anything. I want to finish one of the many,
many books I have started reading, finish editing my WIP, write my
blog, arrange a time to catch up with our friends to play some games
and do something towards the organisation of my wedding...oh yes and
Mr Saunders and I are on holidays in a week so I have that to think
about too!
As a
result I have done nothing but go to the day job and come home all
week, I don't know what to do first or how to work my way through the
magnitude of some of these things, how is it possible that I got
myself into the predicament of reading over 10 books at once anyway?
Organising
a wedding to be held in Brisbane while you are working mega hours in
Mount Isa is a whole to do list in itself and I just don't know how
to go about finding florists and hairdressers when I won't meet them
until one week before I get married. Luckily Mr Saunders has taken
over planning the honeymoon and most of our looming holiday, I just
sent a message to my amazing friend to catch up next weekend and
pouring my anguish out on paper has given me my blog. So it really is
just the big things left, the ones no one can help me with.....so
maybe the first thing on my “to do” list should be stop staring
and do something!
How
about you? Do too many choices leave you with decision paralysis?
